The cruelty of distance

Far away, too far.

I can't go on, yet I love him.
His existence seems unreal, almost a dream,
Why do I put myself through this?
Because I love him and he loves me.
What will I do to pass the time?
I will think of him, but that causes pain along with the happiness.
But I must think of him.

My mind will not focus on anything else.
Time drags so slowly, 10 hours or days?
I do not know.
All I know, it is too long, to be away from him.
I want to fall into him, lose myself in him, be one with him.
He is my light in the darkness.
I would go to him, but distance is a cruel thing.
The phone rings, "No I can't come out tonight"
They ask why but I can't tell the truth.
They would only laugh.
"I have business to attend to goodbye".
I am alone again,
Unseeing, Unthinking, Unwanting.
Except for his warm skin close to mine.
My whole body screams, let him come to me!!!
But he can't, or won't?
"He would come if he could, wouldn't he? Maybe he..."
But the thought is too terrible, He wouldn't.,
I know him. He loves me.
I smile again, our love is tangible,
A living reality, breathing, keeping faith alive.
Living for the day that we finally meet.